as i continue to live my life, i realize i'm not a normal person everyone else i know in my real life simply won't run into burning barns to buy when everyone is screaming to get out i tell them to do it, that they'll never have a chance lik this again, but most simply can't/won't it's an evolutionary herd reflex which has probably kept them alive for generations so idk, i may be redacted or genetically broken, but i've made it work for me somehow