as i continue to live my life, i realize i'm not a normal person everyone else i know in my real life simply won't run into burning barns to buy when everyone is screaming to get out i tell them to do it, that they'll never have a chance like this again, but most simply can't/won't it's an evolutionary herd reflex which has probably kept them alive for generations so idk, i may be redacted or genetically broken, but i've made it work for me somehow

i'm nowhere near the best at this btw some are are just straight nerves of steel i've just come to realize it's like an extremely rare thing. i do believe it can be learned. i think i have learned it. but most have a predisposition not to do it and can't ever overcome it